Long time no see, my friends

Hello dear followers (do I have any followers?!), it’s been a long time since I wrote my last blog. A whooping four and a half years to be precise. Since then, a lot has happened.

Where do I begin. Let’s start with the facts? Here goes…

I now have two little ones, yes two Tasmanian devil replicas who constantly keep me on my feet and are the reason I look absolutely defeated if you see me out in public. But they’re also the reason I want to better myself and be a good role model to them. And on the odd occassion…okay, daily occassion, I get to act like a big kid. Like yesterday, when we turned off all the lights and danced like nobody was watching to a ton of Danny Go songs on YouTube (if you know, you know) – some of the beats got me dancing like I was back a uni!

Secondly, as you can see from the name-change of my blog, my ex and I are no longer together. I’m not going to delve into the details of this though. Shit happens. We move on.

Thirdly, I’m in therapy. Yup, I’m just as messed up as the rest of you! Haha. After being in a relationship for 12 years which should have, admittedly, ended a hell of a lot sooner, I’m now on a journey of self-love and healing.

How’s it going, you ask? My therapist keeps telling me I need to allow myself to “feel”. I had a breakthrough recently. After 2 months or so of weekly sessions, I cried. For 30 seconds. Then went back into “I have too much shit to do to allow myself to sit an wallow” mode.

Saying that, it is helping. And I have already noticed big, positive changes within myself which I’m hoping will continue.

And lastly, I’m moving back in with my parents for a bit. With the cost of living, and what feels like getting penalised for working full-time as it means you get no financial support from the government, I’m going to be living with my parents until I’m back on my feet and in a better place, financially. The last time I lived with them I was 22/23 so it’ll be interesting navigating the dynamics of living with them with two kids – any tips are welcome!

So, that’s the last 4 years or so wrapped up in a nutshell. Here’s to a more positive, exciting and peaceful future!

From your strong, independent single asian mama who don’t need no man (okay, maybe a man would be nice).

xx